So college was... unexpected. I feel like the people in my class are probably older than me- when I mean probably, I mean at least one or two were around my age, maybe 17 at least.
Not to mention I was sleep deprived due to the huge
amount of nerves that built up inside of me and the fact I tried calming myself down with browsing for some JeanMarco art, fanfiction and videos which in fact kind of make me cry a lot like... most of the night! Then that crying kind of turned into really scared and feeling really sick kind of crying that ripped me apart because of my anxiety.
But still, college was ok, except for the fact there are still people who speak like they should belong at my old school but at least one of them seems to show some respect apart from the fact I felt so fucking awkward when he just randomly suggested that I should go to his church's youth club one time. Yeah sure, it's a youth club but I'm atheist and just by going into a church or the hall of one makes me feel so out of place it's unreal. So being the introverted shit I am, I feigned interest and tried to change the subject by being honest and saying that I don't make friends that easily- which I don't but the answer I got was; don't worry, they'll make friends with you.
Fuck. My. Life.
I wanted to slam my head into the wall there and then- but thankfully we finished at two so I vented on the bus by listening to music.
But you wanna know what made the situation much worse?! This guy was as tall as me- about 5'4"...
Yup I know there are some short men out there but when this dude is around 17/18/19 years of age and being 5'4" it just felt so freaking awkward, but hey, most of the guys in my class are kind of short- except from a few who are of average height, thank fuck.
But hey, doing animation means drawing, and drawing means more art to upload onto here. With the assignments that comes with this course, I guess I could snake some JeanMarco in there somewhere, or even just a shit ton of Attack on Titan and maybe at a push, some Wicked.
But fuck, are the people in my class going to be the ultimate death of me! *slams head into bedroom wall*